I don't even know how to feel right now.
I knew you never really wanted me.
I could tell from the way you acted around.
From the way I never seemed to meet up to your standards.
The way you would talk to me like if I didn't have feelings.
The way you never seemed to care if I was upset or sick.
I wish I could hate you for this.
I wish with every fiber in my body that I could hate you.
But I can't.
No matter how hard I want to, there is nothing in this world that you can do to make me hate you.
Even after I heard you say that.
I knew I shouldn't have stayed and listen, I should have walked away or let you guys know I was right there.
Maybe you wouldn't have said those things.
Were you just angry? Did something happen to upset you that made you say that?
I can sit here and try to make up excuses for you but that would be pointless.
You meant every word of it.
I could hear it in your voice.
I can still hear it.
If I could change the way you felt about me I would.
There's nothing in this world that I wanted more than your love.
I wish you would have told me you felt that way.
I could have saved myself so much.
I could have done something else with that time.
Spared a lot of disappointment.
I feel stupid for feeling this way.
I feel stupid for crying over this.
I sort always knew, yeah?
There's really nothing I can say to you that will make things better, is there?
So I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I ruined everything for you.
I'm sorry that I caused you to be unhappy for so many years.
I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough to change your mind.
I'm sorry.
I'm truly sorry.
